I was sown from a lineage of broken seeds into fertile but violated soil I fear for my progeny that they too may give birth to brokenness I did not know how broken nor how broken the seeds were from which I emerged How come we cannot see ourselves clearly? …

I am tired today. Socializing still wipes me out. I spent last night unintentionally a part of a networking program for new residents here in the Greater Fort Wayne area. …

I came out in 2015 as a “free-thinker” or “non-theist.” This decision had nothing to do with resenting god/s because of my cancer. My…

Tuesday, June 9, 2021 I read an article on Medium that mentioned a poetry competition for Pride month. I sent it on to Samantha, my daughter, as she writes mind-blowing poems and encouraged her to enter. Unfortunately, the challenge is past due which I should have realized but didn’t. So…

Tuesday, May 18, 2021 I am sitting in the car waiting for Makaela while she interviews at Flattop. It’s my least favorite type of restaurant: Mongolian grill type. She got the job! I will try it at least once. Maybe I’ll become a repeat customer. Monday, May 17, 2021 It…

Thursday, April 29, 2021 It is moving day! I have had a headache all morning, so I stayed back to rest at the hotel. I always get scared when I have a headache as I think the tumor may be on the move. It may be growing, but I just…

Sunday, April 25, 2021 Will the anxiety ever go away on its own? We were sitting at the Friendly Fox for our Saturday morning breakfast ritual, people all around, positive distractions, when wham, I think I had a “mini” seizure and lost consciousness for half of a second. I lost…

Saturday, April 10,2021 Andrew is arriving in less than an hour. I am crazy excited to see him. We will be waking up next Saturday in a hotel half-way to Fort Wayne. It is truly unbelievable. Even though I have stage 4 cancer, I am filled with so much hope…

*Infusion time* Ramblings From a Broken Brain Saturday, March 20th, 2021 It’s been a hard day. It started with a misunderstanding between Andrew and me which was quickly resolved, but always painful. We fight passionately, so neither of us were fully recovered when we drove to our happy place, the…